Struggling with family news

My worst fear has come to light, my mom is poorly.

For me this is the worst thing to happen, the only thing I have worried about ever since I could remember. She is my best friend and to ever think she wouldn’t be here just makes me want to curl up and cry.

For years it’s just been me and my mom, me and her together. As I’ve grown older and adult life comes in the way I would say we were still close but just didn’t see each other every day. Finding out she isn’t well and might have cancer more than likely has just shook me to the ground.

I was fortunate for her to let me live in our house with my boyfriend and she went to live with her boyfriend. Ever since finding out she is unwell it’s made me question and regret her moving out, not seeing her as much and just feeling guilty.

I think when you find out bad news like this though and especially with the big word cancer thrown into the mix, the unfamiliar thoughts create that anxiety and stress and with this type of stress you need to let it out but not let it consume you.

We’ve only known a week and I feel like that week has been 2 years with how my emotions have been up and down. For me it’s important to find healthy ways to let my negative feelings out. Taking up reading again has massively helped and walking the dog with headphones listening to my favourite music has made my mental well-being a lot easier to manage.

The hard part will be returning to work after half term off and dealing with the stresses of my daily job and also balancing my home life.

For now the struggle is real for me and my family but sticking together will help my mom try and fight this off. Starting this blog I want to help myself in my bad days and also note down the good days.

Finishing off with a positive for a Sunday evening.

Not everyday will be a bad day, let the bad days come and go. When your having a good day make the most out of each and every second.